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The poor child. After sleeping over at Poppa and Tutu's, she had probably one night out of seven that she went to bed at a normal time and slept the night through. We kept her up too late too often, just with get-togethers and such. These last few nights seem to be better - she's been going down on time and sleeping through the night. In fact, this morning I never woke up to her chatter. I shot out of bed at 10am feeling like a terrible mom. When I went into her room she was standing in her crib staring at the fan. We then launched into a conversation about "fan" versus "space heater." She was fine, but I still feel bad about how late I woke up this morning.
We have church tonight, so her bedtime will be disrupted again, but hopefully the next few days will be much more simple, routine wise.
I'm 32-ish weeks pregnant now, which is crazy. I can't believe this kid is coming in like 6 weeks! The nursery is a bit of a disaster - I need to seriously get down to business and get that room ready for the kid to get here. Do I feel ready, emotionally and such? Um, not really. My Grandpa keeps telling me, "If one kid takes all your time, then there's not much left that the second one can take." I guess that's supposed to make me feel better! He laughs every time he says it...
I really look forward to having a new little baby around, someone to enjoy and get to know as a totally new person, but I'm not eager to deal with the lack of sleep this new person will bring with her. I struggled with a huge hormone surge after Hazel was born, so I was in a bad, bad emotional state for about two weeks, until I discovered my homeopathic called "Blu." I have some in my medicine cabinet now, so I think that that will really aid in dealing with the ups and downs of post labor hormones. I think that just going into this delivery with eyes wide open will help me deal with things as they come, like lack of sleep, hormone surges, potential breastfeeding issues, etc. I'll be ready when she comes...hopefully!
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i remember being really worried about feeling emotionally attached to ivy when i was pregnant with her. it felt like i didn't have a fleeting second to really focus on how she was growing and developing, let alone bond with her (in utero).
once she was born and on my chest, i remember feeling the rush of emotions. it was as if everything i "should" have been feeling for the 9 months of pregnancy came gushing out as soon as she was in my arms.
i don't know if this is just how it goes down with 2nd, 3rd, 4th,... pregnancies, but i'm willing to bet that other mothers have had similar experiences.
when you already have a baby/ toddler, it's really hard to focus on something/ someone when they're not the immediate concern (ie: hazel). when this baby comes, things will adjust.
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